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| wow. its been forever. everyone just disregard the last entry. big mistake. lol. u knw i was readin back on stuff on here n its funny how fast time goes. i wish things could be back to how they were. i never knew that wat i used to say would be true. (i miss u when im with u but im alone when im with out u). o well. ive tried to work through things n besides lil fights here n there its goin ok i guess. ive ranked up in ticket status lol. i now have a total of 16 i think it is. still have a warrant out for one but its ok. man omg there is this beautiful girl at work. too bad she has a bf hahaha. i actually have a job to. i work at potbelly sandwich works in las colinas. fun as hell. the management is great. unlike teak n shake (ass holes). lol. o n i totaled my baby :'(. i had the car for 2 years i think. so many memories lost. o well i guess. just seams dreams n feelings are getting smashed left n right. man its so hard to beleive i have been out of school for a year now. time flies. hopefully things can work out with me n this girl im tlkn to. got diner plans friday :). ooooo n im getting this bad ass peircing. its an orbital peircing. two holes with one loop through both. ill have to put a pic up if i can get one. well im ganna go to bed n back to my hell called life but FUCK IT lol.
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| omg she is so awesome. me n kristin have been together for not even a week n i see this going so far. i love it. we went on a date tonight n went to the airport (her favorite place) n out to west end. she had such a blast. ive never seen some one smile so much. mmmm n the booze ive had the last couple of days is good too (screwdrivers, cape codders, n salty dogs(i thinks that the second one, cape codders, i unno, cranberry n vodka)). mmmmmmm good shit lol. well yall have fun im buzzed n need to chill lol. night all | | |
| ok so me n heidi broke up back in novemeber i beleive it is but i am tryin so hard to get over it all. its been tough but its workin....but i actually found some one else. i am sooooooo happy. i didnt think i could. now is all im doing is hoping and preying it works out...i actually am going back to school n actually workin at it this time. im takin developemental math n a human development class...fuuun let me tell ya lol. but yea thats bout all that new...boring i know but o well. | | |
| wat to say. its like there is nothing to say ne more.i guess you could say im happy cause i am in a way. i have a new, cassie n shes great, but heidi is still there. i still love her but its not ganna interefere. ill keep her around, of course. there is only one problem, every time i am around her n josh at the same time i just want to kill my self. it sux cause i still care for her but i cant do nething bout it. not untill this summer hopefully. but then again it also depends on wat happens with cassie. i unno. too many questions for one point in time. its so hard to keep some one you love so much out of your life. nothing will change the way i feel about her. shes so special too me n yet i dont even knw wat to think of her. not to the point of wat she is but if i do get back together with her will she stay with me. eh o well. bad thoughts. well i have to go but ill be back in a long time from now. so long | | |
| Confessions of A Cutter
By: kristin somthingorother
Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin
Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain
Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain
Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin
Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I | | |
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